Do gooder?

 I thought that I was doing the right thing

I thought that I was bettering myself

I thought that I was improving myself

I thought that my persistence

would yield 

something better

but it actually yielded the opposite

and in the process

I got so lost

trying to be so many things

for so many people

and missing my mark

the mark within myself

the mark for me

was that any good?

to forget oneself?