realized

 that if you do things half assed

half step

or give half of yourself

that is the result 

you will end up with.

It all starts with the intention.

Why do we intend to do half assed things and get the real honest response/result back?

It's called lying.

You are lying to yourself.

Just like I was lying to myself.

Now that we admit it and know,

will we continue to lie.

Well, sometimes I guess,

hard to break a habit.

But this one will continue to break us

as we deceive ourselves.

Why isn't this working out for me?!

But do we really want it to work out for us?

Really?

And if it it did, then what?

The deception pod, keeps you safe and in this stupid bubble and cycle of self-handicapped and self-inflicted victimization.

It is not working

because you aren't working.

You can't just skip ahead and get to the end.

Who wants that?

No one, take your time,

each step along the way

enjoy the view

and endure the arduous journey

but soak it ALL in

so in the end

you know ALL of who you are in it

who you were 

and who you can be.